A renewed purpose!

  So today was an amazing day.. I went to church feeling very discouraged and God met me right where I was.. isn't that a verse?? lol  I was feeling lost I guess is a good word, without purpose, useless, like a failure, alone.. anyway you get the idea. I have been struggling with the fact that I am 35 and still single, so I get to church and the pastor is in I Cor. 7.. great the marriage chapter.. needless to say I was not pleased. :)  My first reaction was awww crap I can't get away from the subject.. it is all over my fb page,and in my day to day life.. I swear the whole world is getting married and having babies!.. anyway I thought at least at church I might escape the reality and focus on Jesus.. but nope! Needless to say God had a greater plan.. go figure. :) So the pastor is talking and I was doing my best to concentrate, when all of a sudden he gets to this verse about what the unmarried are to do.. and how it is a beautiful thing to be unmarried because it is possible for the person to focus on the things of the Lord.  I realized that I am called to serve Jesus above all else, now this is not to say that I may get married at some point.. but even if I do get married I still need to have Jesus first in my life, I have made marriage an idol in my heart, I need to focus on Jesus and that will make me into the person that God wants me to be.. a good wife, friend etc. 

   Oh the beautiful things that are possible when we focus on Jesus!  I can just relax and love Jesus and bask in His amazing love for me.. why would I worry, He has the best for me.. even if I can't see it right now. I am so free and happy and just excited right now! I have found my purpose that is not only for this world but for all eternity.. I am a slave of Jesus.. I am his beloved,  child, daughter,  chosen one, witness, and bride.

What brings you joy?

    ... is it a person, place or thing? :) ...  this world thinks that if we have a the big house, nice car, and lots of money in the bank that it will bring us  happiness... I find this hard to believe. Take Hollywood for example, all of these celebrities making a  gazillion dollars and yet so many of them are getting divorced, drinking, addicted to drugs of every sort, I mean maybe that makes them happy but I find that hard to believe.  

    I find that I am most joyful or blissful when I am surrounded by the people that I love, I think that in the long run people really are what matters most, it is the time that we invest in others that will really make a difference in this world.. not the fancy house or car. 

  It is the little things that make life worth living.. laughing so hard that you sides hurt, a really good cup of coffee, a friend that you can talk to for hours or sit in contented silence with, being told 'I love you' and knowing without a doubt that it is true , worshiping God , chasing your dreams, accomplishing what you set out to do, a good book,  or your favorite song on the radio. 

  

I guess it is as the quote says.. " Enjoy the little things in life because one day you will look back and  realize that they were the big things." 

What is love?

I wrote this a few years ago.. but the blog that I am going to write made me think of it, so I thought I would post it.. 

Some say..  "To be brave is to love unconditionally without expecting anything in return to just give.."  But I wonder what is love? ... is it friendship,  is it trust that we place in another, is it an absolute rush of emotion...is it wanting to be near someone so bad that it hurts when you are not with them, is it a choice, is it missing someone when you have only just left their side, is it a willingness to cause ourselves discomfort in order to make another person happy and hoping that they will do the same in return, is it a willingness to give all of yourself to another only to have them give themselves back to you in return, is it a risk that we take... is it all of these things?

  To Love...is to be brave